Control is such a nice feeling and so hard to find. There is SO little any of us actually have control over that when we experience some semblance of it it is very gratifying indeed. I used to think I had control over my body; at least I felt so for a very long time( injuries included) but the last 8 years or so I thought that it had all been lost.
For, as they say on the plane, "put your mask on before you put on your childs". If I can't fix myself I can't help anyone else.